Thursday, November 06, 2008
finally the toughest period of the tough time is gone, but the
trauma is still there.
that failure feeling that sets in whenever i start tryin.
the class said they have went ahead to book a chalet. i am still thinking whether i should go or not. I realised in these 2 years, i never enjoyed any outing at all. i never did. well those which have games such as pool or bowling...i was happy to play, but i never really enjoyed. In addition , i am avoiding my classmates more and more often now, since it is the exam periods. As i avoid them, i do get a bit guilty.However, whenever i remembered that numbness i felt, my comfort zone sets in and i run away.
so in short, i am a loser in life with no real friends.
still...someone once said, "Friends come and go, enemies accumulate." or "you came here with nothing, you go with nothing as well."
Lol, that is to comfort myself. I am just selfish, and do not want to burden me or other people.
After these series of thoughts, i realised i failed in everything for these past 2 years but I am determined to make this examination a success, it had been a strain in both physically and emotionally to my body and soul just to go through this exam ever since i stepped into the school.
on the other hand, i am thinking of maintaining a forum or site after my A's..but before that i got lots of stuff to handle.
Probing on LISA- Be the man.mp3, crave.mp3
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It was 6:29:00 pm when sealed by サーン
